I scare myself sometimes..

Last night was a series of disturbing dreams- In the first one I was a Doctor on the lines of Dr. Moreau in a forest and was conducting some experiments on the eating habits of wild animals, and in the end not unlike what happens to the famous doctor all the animals turn on me and I was running for my life. On the way I found some nails which turned into armadillos, strange flat sorts, but they were armadillos all right.
Then I was standing at the edge of a pool ready to dive in with my costume and my cap on, when I noticed how dirty the water was. It was covered with slime and flies infested. A bunch of women clad in saris (strange crowd to be found next to a pool) told me that this was because of all the children that peed in the pool. Eauuu…
Then I was in a classroom arguing with my teacher for some absurd reason. And then I had a really vivid dream- I was in a house in some hill station-apparently of some family friends. They had a son and he, and I don’t know how I knew this, was my ideal guy. The whole ying yang and searching for the part that Zeus halved bit-that strong. And then I turned into a vampire and tried to suck his blood. I have such rosy ideas about love!!

Phew! No wonder that I couldn’t getup early and start studying.

The whole vampire bit has always been a fantasy of mine. There is something decidedly sensuous about the undead and no one can deny the obvious sex appeal of Count Dracula and Spike(Buffy the Vampire Slayer fame, for the information of the less morbid). Once I dressed up as Morticia Addams for my college farewell, that was a lot of fun, especially when I wentup on the stage to serenade to the entire English department. That’ another story and can be saved for a later post. Meanwhile my mind is preoccupied with the idea of finding me Gomez.

Morticia: Gomez, last night - you were unhinged. You were like some desperate, howling demon. You frightened me. - Do it again!

bluesy!!

i should be studying right now, but here i am writing this blog. first and foremost reason for doing so is that when maya comes online she has somethign to entertain her(u know i love you), and then, anything to keep me away from my books.
after today's disastrous papers i dont think i want to study, but i do want to get drunk. Get drunk and laugh and get thrown out of V2, i know i always call it V2s. what a shady place that was, but we all loved going there. Usually after exams, so ok even after random assignments, if we happened to be in Gk, if someone was feeling low, and most of the times for no real reason at all. and why not, the beer was unbelievably cheap. hmm...i think i'll stop using the past tense, makes me feel really old and anyway it hasnt even been a whole year since we graduated.

But i miss it all-the smoking outside college, the no reason visits to GK, TSF(even though stopped going there ages ago), getting drunk in the middle of the afternoon and dancing to strange songs and sharing the floor with pre pubescent teenagers who needed to 'get a room'.
I want to go and smoke in shady corners of SV, and scourge for chillad just so that i have enough for momos, or bhelpuri, basically i just want to know that some friends are just a phone call away and would go and do whatever crazy silly thing amused us.

I dont want to be a grouch, i love M.A., and i adore all of my friends, they are seriously fantabulous...but they are all so far away...and in the evenings when i just want to step out for a sutta there is nobody i can call, and now even Didi isnt here. yeah, i am hitting an all time low.

maybe i should get a puppy. but if i make it have beer with me wouldnt it die of liver failure?? i know a friend whose dog died like that...i might be lot of things but i am not a puppy dog killer.
Once i actually made a statement like i dont need a boyfriend i need a puppy dog(had just hit puberty), i have come a long way!!